If there is one thing I'd learnt enduring trimesters, it'll be learning to rest, not quit. Life does get really tough when workload crashes you to the bones, and you have to figure out what to eat or cook for dinner, figure out how to save money, figure out how to allocate time to meet up with people, figure out how to spare time to sleep, figure out how to make sure you don't fall too far from everyone else and the list goes on. I know everyone's life is hard in a different way and I'm definitely not here ranting how mine is the worst or busiest. On my birthday a few weeks ago, I decided to take a full day off from uni work (regardless of the 9am tut I went) and went to the zoo actually! (since its 1 dollar on bday so why not). The days before that were just me cramming all my assignments and lecs and tests all day and night so that I could take a good total rest on my bday. And after that day, I actually felt so liberated and refreshed, and I'm actually excited to go back to work aka programming till late (like what?). I realised I'm actually enjoying what I'm doing and I was just too busy to even realise that. Sometimes, you just had to sit at the passenger seat of your life to get a bigger picture of everything around. With zero breaks during trimesters, on top of me taking 4 subjects this term, it's all really up to us to take care of ourselves physically and mentally man.
All thanks to social media for making things worse. It hits hard when you see all your other friends reuniting back home, and you be here looking at your one thousand and one things on the to do list, wishing that someone cares. And then telling your mind that it's okay and you shouldn't be comparing. People grow differently in different journeys of life, and comparing with others is definitely not an option in the list. In fact, what we see are what people choose to broadcast about their life, and 90% of the time it's not the pain and hurt they go through during their own journey, its all hidden beneath, like what we were taught to, showcase only the good, not the bad, which is so wrong now that I learnt. At some point in life, we're victims of this generation of technology, we all want to look good, we all want to have it all together, and truth be told it's never like that all the time. Instead of blaming social media and banning it, I value real expression of thoughts online more, with the experience of being personally impacted and inspired by people who share honestly, especially on faith and the awareness of mental health, and I'm learning to be intentional in what I post or share too.
Today is another rare day I get to wake up late, stroll at my fav market, spending time with friends and rest at home at night. As I'm typing all these thoughts, I'm just speaking them to myself back really.
Learning to rest, not quit,
Nicole
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