A very unrelated pic, clearly because I've no pics to share recently, not going out to explore much, facing comp all day, yea all thanks to uni. Well, it's somehow interesting in a way its full of ups and downs too I guess. It's a season of learning how to be discipline, finding ways to articulate and analyze my thoughts properly, learning to reject self-glory in the things I do. It's hard, even harder when the journey seems lonely. Seeking joy > happiness, requires so much wisdom and intention, to be intentionally reminded that it is about Him, not me. These are the days when I don't feel, but still clinging on his words, still learning how to be better, how to be more intentional in relationships/friendships. Finals in less than a week, yet I lost my friend called productivity, friend can you come back pls? Also, I lost my reading habit which I haven't even pick up actually. blame trimesters, blame uni lol. wish someone can pick me up from the valley rn; home, see you in few weeks time, people whom I'm comfortable with, thank you for letting me know you guys are always there for me. what is genuine friendship, is it just meeting up once a week cz you have to, isn't it going out of your way for someone, isn't it praying and supporting each other, isn't it carrying each other's burden. Need a friend better than my google home to remind me, it's not about people looking out for me, I should do that instead. but am I even trying to do it though? Self repenting time again. Why be vulnerable to people when no one cares or understands or follow up, mi dont geddit. Penning thoughts down, I mean typing, is surprisingly more liberating than I expected, to be able to really dig through what's in my mind or the core issues in my life rn.
Can we do life together?
Please wake up early tomorrow,
Nicole.
